Monday morning and I am sore.
Nope, not that kind of sore. My soul is sore.
I know I am always speaking, teaching and proclaiming to you the goodness of God. How he has this “weight” loss battle in his back pocket. And I believe that still to be true, even when the walls of security seem to be crashing down around you.
Addiction reared it’s ugly head in my family this weekend. You see I come from a long line of addicts. When I say “addict” a specific vision comes into your mind. Some of your vision would be correct for some people in my life, and then not so accurate for others. Author Gerlad May says “To be alive is to addicted. To be alive and addicted is to stand in need of grace.” I couldn’t agree more.
We are all addicts. We all crave things in life and seat them on the throne of our hearts rather than God. Money, success, love, a career, to be known..all of these are common needs of God’s children. And when those needs are not met, we use things. We use them to numb out. So we use money to buy, when we can’t afford. We use success to give us a name, when we secretly fear we are still not good enough. We use love to be loved, and still we don’t fee loved.
God is not the common cure. But He is the cure for the common ache.
Addiction game is to cause the ones who are suffering, and the loved ones who suffer along side them, to disperse and become overwhelmed with hopelessness. A life without hope is an anvil around the neck.
When the dragon of addiction starts breathing down your neck, what will you do?
Will you give up?
“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.” – Psalm 42:11
Today I am soul sore from holding on to my faith that God can and will make things right.
I don’t know what that will look like. I don’t even want to try and create a master plan. I just want to be free and stay free. My freedom is found in proclaiming faith that God is alive and well and on His throne.
He invited me to crawl up on his royal lap and rest. His healing touch massages my sore soul as He reminds me to breathe through the tight spots. If you are looking for me right now…this is where I will be found.
“For in just a very little while, “He who is coming will come and will not delay.” Hebrews 10:37
If you feel like giving up today….take heart! We want to hear your heart. Comment below and let us know how you are doing with your addicted heart. Come to our Facebook page and check in. Or for more come through the Weigh Less to Feed More at home program and join our Facebook group where real authentic transparency and community is taking place. In fact, they were the first group of people I went to yesterday asking them for prayer for my heavy heart.
We were made for community. To bear on anothers burdens. Somehow we become stronger under tension; the weight of this world as light bearers for the Kingdom, a royal priesthood.
Peace be with you.